The Tanzanian singer and songwriter, in her podcast titled One on One with Vanessa Mdee, talks about family, love, music and battling alcoholism and the difficulties of being an artiste in a secular world.
The Wet singer said that for the better part of 2019, she drank herself to sleep and asked people around her to cover up for her.
In the podcast, she told her fans that she wanted to let them know the truth because she didn't want to live a candy-coated life.
I had moments of we are enjoying this, I had moments of this is fun, I had moments of this is a beautiful day," Mdee adds.
"I have no desire to do anything that is music industry-related, I have no desire to go to another award show, to keep up a facade, I have no desire to be a pseudo person which I truly became and I could not recognise myself anymore," the singer says.